I'm pathetic

I am a low life at its lowest -.-;
Iii don't go to school.
Anddd I get bad grades because of it.
I realize that.
But, instead of doing something about it, I say "Fuck it im going back t o bed"
Like now,
I should be getting ready to go to school.
But I've already decided that I'm now.
For what purpose?
I don't feel like it.
I have no motivation.
Even when people...
okay scratch people..
even when Chris or Nikki tries to tell me I need to go to school
Iiim like " yeah okay"..
Iono where I'm gonna be 5 years from now -.-;.
Might be better off If I were dead,
so I wouldn't have to worry about this kinda stuff.
But I dun wanna die.
I want money =[.
But I can't have money without going to school.
So I lose?
Maybe It'll change when dad doesn't have a job.
He said that he would be out of work in like 2 weeks..
Either way-
I'm not going to school today.